Venting Place - Confused

So, I really dont think anybody ever reads this and I really just need a place to write.

This are so confusing lately. First, I'm finally over this whole Walter thing. I really just wanna have fun with whomever I so choose. And for right now I would rather that be Colby. But nooo...... Ben had to keep it up. He just couldnt let me do my own thing. He just kept trying. And I felt like I owed to him to give him a chance. And Jessi pressured me into thinking that we were perfect for each other when we have absolutely nothing that is together. I mean he came to visit this weekend and we never talk about anything except for how in love with me he is and how much he adores me. That is NOT having things in common. I just feel like I'm trapped in this relationship that I really dont want in and I really cant take. I do like Ben but not as much as he likes me. I just want to have fun. I'm too scared of getting hurt again to think about being with someone. But the part that feels so bad is I dont know if I am scared of relationships in general or if I am just scared of a relationship with Ben. Sure, me and Colby dont have as much in common, but we always have or find something to talk about. It is never awkward with me and him. So, I just dont know if I would still feel this way if it were Colby. I just dont know.

FALL OUT BOY but better yet ALL TIME LOW!!!

so on Friday was the Fall Out Boy Concert with Hey Monday, Cobra Starship, 50 Cent, and best of all ALL TIME LOW!!!... but I wasnt couldnt go.... well so Emily A. called me and was like Todd's sick... so as much as I love Todd and was sad that he was sick.... OMG that means I get to go.... AHHHHHHHHH!!!!

Hey Monday was great, Cobra Starship was fantastic, 50 was awesome, and Fall Out Boy was hard to beat..... but ALL TIME LOW did it..... they were stupendous, the best ever..... I mean yea Im biased cuz they are my favorite band but still... WOW!!!

So it was great and I'll post some pics lata....

OMIGOD OMIGOD YOU GUYS

Ok so yesterday I went and saw LEGALLY BLONDE THE MUSICAL..... and it was AMAZING!!!!! Like it was the best show I have ever seen. I have been singing the music all day today. You see my mother and I went as a little mother daughter thing so yea. I loved it!!!  Just thought you should know!!!

SB '09

Yea, so I know I havent blogged in a few days but hey give me a break I just got back from the beach.  

Oh the beach was so much fun. So here's the rundown. We got down there on Wednesday and I met up with some of the girls and we went out to Dick's for dinner. That was fun. Let's see my hat said "The Health Department closed my legs." The others were pretty funny too. I'll put pics up when I get them from Cayce. But then, we went out on the strip to waste some time plus everything closes at like 11:30 anyways at this time.

Thursday, well that was rather boring. But hey my parents wanted to spend time together since it was my last spring break with them but whatever. And I stilled managed to catch the double episode of THE OFFICE!!!

Friday, we went out to eat at like one of my favorite places Drunken Jack's. It was so good way to much food but still good. Then I met some friends and that was fun.

Saturday, we checked out of our house/apartment/condo thing and we went to Hamburger Joe's to eat which is also amazing!!! 

But now I'm back home. We got back for easter. 

I definitely am not ready for school tomorrow but hey only 18 days left until I'm done with school!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MEL!!!

So today is/was one of my favoritist peoples birthday. MELANIE KATHRYN NANCE!!!! She is awesome. So we definitely kinda ditched school (a group of us) and went out to eat. Good times. But anyways while at lunch we all found out how we are all gonna be at the beach at the same time (with the exception of Hannah). How exciting is that!!! But I mean nothing that exciting is really happening other than the fact that there is only 4 days until Spring Break!!!!

I suppose it's not the first....

So I'm back to blogging again. I havent blogged in who knows how long but hey nows as great a time as anything. So, the whole thing is why now?? Well, college is only 5 months away!!! YAY!!! So I guess this is a way to keep in touch and for everyone to still know whats going on.

But anyways I just must say that absolutely hate all this rain. It's killing me. Just when I think that it's gonna be all warm and sunny, it decides to get cold and rainy again. But hey I guess that summers gonna be here soon and maybe that'll mean less rain.

But there aint a whole lot going one around here today. I have been looking up some gifts for some friends and absolutely loved the stuff I found at Whitney Caroline Designs. http://www.whitneycarolinedesigns.com/index.html Her stuff is so cute. You really have got to check it out.

So I gotta go eat and finish watching this game. I'll check back when something interesting is actually occuring!!